Near but Far

The stillness of the water calms me
My nerves go jittery upon your nearness
I look at the shadows we made...
you and me...close...touching
but in reality, the closest I can get is putting my knees beside yours

In the dark, I tried to look closely at you
My face a foot away
Yours is the face of someone i looked at even in the dark...
a face that illuminated the dark of the night
It just captured everything.i traced your face down to the detail ..
but never got to touch it.
but i know how it feels.

Being with you that night completely filled me..
I never wanted the moment to end
but there are a lot of thoughts racing thru my head...
I am floating with these thoughts
Because I cannot handle what I feel for you

I've come from a life of selfish whims
And I have grown up...
You were never meant to be in my world...
You were never meant to sufferall the trauma that comes with being me.

Like a little paper boat,
I will let you float into the water
My love flowing but leading you
to a better world out there
where you can be your true self.

But as we move on,
Feel the wind as it touches your face
blowing little kisses as I would have.
Listen to its soft blows
as it whispers my thoughts of you....