Waiting intently...

My clothes were drenched and the maong pants felt heavier on my legs....but I continued walking. I didn't know where to but I kept my pace. Raindrops fell on me, my face dripping wet and worst, the mixture of raindrops and tears left a salty taste on my lips.I looked up to the sky and wondered when the rain would stop. My eyes blinked for a few times, trying to see if there's any sign of sunshine. Negative. I stopped for a while to see how soaked and muddy my chucks were. I imagine your face in case you see me now...you'll say, "Dirty Baby!!" I begin to smile faintly....trying to recall how we walked in the rain, covered by your small jacket..no matter how wet I was from the rain, it felt warm to be beside you.I tried to walk a few steps...then looked back from where I began. I figured crying and walking in the rain at the same time gave me an excuse not to look too sad. Nobody will know I was crying. Nobody will know I was lonely, that I was waiting for you....

Keeping a straight face

I sit there with a blank stare...chin resting on one palm.
I try to blink and see what's wrong with us.
It's hard to say goodbye when you know it's not yet the end of it.
But you have to since the other hand that held me is now waving goodbye.
I cannot imagine not seeing those eyes that stared at me and looked with love.
I knew it would come to this but the thought hid at the back of my mind for so long.
Denial comes in again, I bit my lip and continue to hope, to cross my fingers.
Will I ever feel you in my arms again? Will you be here when I need you once more?
The spaces between my fingers feel empty without yours filling it.
It's like the night sky without any stars at all...dark, mysterious, engulfing me in sadness.
I talk to myself silently, wondering when the shock will die down...when everything will sink in...and I start to cry.
Tears will be endlessly flowing, as I recall all the memories, the moments we have.
I do not want to pretend again, that everything's alright, that everything will be ok.